explain the pain

aha

the book explain the pain is really really good

but my woman who re validates me is really special!

she lets me do exercises my way and my way has proven 

to be not  succesfull

when it went wrong ( of course) she asked me

what do you need right now and without thinking I said 

TOF

she didn't understood of course but when I explained that Tof was my dog who died a couple of months ago she said...i think she's here to help you?

strangely enough  from all my death love ones i could feel them around me but not Tof

suddenly she said something very special.....

maybe she keeps some distance to let you see you have to look at yourself and  accept yourself as you are 

not angry, not impatient

ok 

i am who i am

it is as it is

the baggie is little but it has not so much to carry

ha! 

( would Jude Hill say)