Vacation 2015

Stormy wheather

despite the pain

 the comment on no escape from Michelle  http://mscomfortzone.blogspot.com was so helpful that today I can concentrate on the other side of the road. There where beauty is...there where I can see the things that make me happy

thanks Michelle!

"Actually everything is simple.

There is one straight road and if you open your eyes you can go along it.
I don't see the need for all sorts of clever short cuts.
Happiness and sadness are both on the road
there is no road that avoids them
but peace is found on this road

nowhere else."

(Rabindrenath Tagore) 

no escape

can I surrender?

surrender to the pain

not  today .....I feel trapped  ...desperate....I see no way out

pain and me must become friends

midsummer

rich....we are so rich.......

spring

spring is the time in this area when toads move from the wood to the water

for years and years we ask the community to help us save the toads because the have to pass a busy road.

the sign came ( translated.....toad transporters....) and buckets to catch the toads and bring them to saver ground.

a lovely friend of me

Anita,

is very commited and  persuate to mobilise people in the neighbourhood  to help her

                     

this is typical dutch spring with de " bollenvelden"  ( tulips) too

below inimini seedlings of a beech

spring a year ago with another dear friend

my spring goal is visiting Norway......

by getting a stronger leg.........

I hope the feathers from heaven , sent by Noud on his birtday that would be today , touch our hearts with soft whispers of hope

............

the earth........

if you fall, trust on your given possibilities....

dare to dream

bee happy

             n.           bb.        n. n mmmmm.    vvv b

today i came back from swimming and felt a little bit sad

while drinking my coffee my eye caught a piece of embroiderie from Martine

 ( ateliercolore.blogspot.com )

bee happy

suddenly i realised it was the day , 9 years ago, my husband noud died and at the same time my dog blaf was born

thank you martine ....you transformed beauty out of immense sadness and made me realise that for me death and birth were at the same time 9 years ago!

bee happy

             n.           bb.        n. n mmmmm.    vvv b

today i came back from swimming and felt a little bit sad

while drinking my coffee my eye caught a piece of embroiderie from Martine

 ( ateliercolore.blogspot.com )

bee happy

suddenly i realised it was the day , 9 years ago, my husband noud died and at the same time my dog blaf was born

thank you martine ....you transformed beauty out of immense sadness and made me realise that for me death and birth were at the same time 9 years ago!

bee happy

             n.           bb.        n. n mmmmm.    vvv b

today i came back from swimming and felt a little bit sad

while drinking my coffee my eye caught a piece of embroiderie from Martine

 ( ateliercolore.blogspot.com )

bee happy

suddenly i realised it was the day , 9 years ago, my husband noud died and at the same time my dog blaf was born

thank you martine ....you transformed beauty out of immense sadness and made me realise that for me death and birth were at the same time 9 years ago!

wieslaw mysliwski

wieslaw mysliwski

in this book i read a sentence that struck me

the narrator tells his story and asked..

isn't remembering a kind of light that comes to us from a no longer excisting star? maybe a memory that may not reach you at all?

isn't the whole life a remembrance?

how little are  the problems in the past you thought you never survive ...

how soothing   isn't it?

surrender

what makes us who we are?

how to find back my connection with nature, the part of nature that includes death ( for me... my husband Noud, dog tovke and the alzheimer desaster for my mum) with my brain i know its normal but now it makes me mad and sad. 

i don't want to accept

life has no purpose

butbutbut

nature always heal me

but now???

butbutbut

ik ben verdrietig, ik ben boos, ik wil niet weten dat het gaat zoals het gaat......

terwijl ik in het verleden troost vond in de natuur, dat als een sneeuwvklokje uitgebloeid is, het volgend jaar weer gewoon terug komt

dat je water en wind niet niet tegen kan houden

het troost me niet

het komt niet aan

yvonne zei....ben je niet gewoon bang dat je moeder dood gaat

mijn moeder zei....niet verdrietig zijn hoor, het is net als bij tovke, die was gewoon op, net als noud, die was blij dat hij geen adem meer hoefde te halen, zo benauwd was hij

das zei....je hoeft niet bang te zijn, wij zijn er voor je

de honden laten zich gelden, wij zijn er ook nog

maar ik blijf ontroostbaar

ik blijf huilen

water hou je niet tegen

hoe hou je tranen tegen?

ik hoop dat het gaat sneeuwstormen, daar kan ik echt niet omheen

toch de natuur die troost......

be the person your dog knows you are

meditation of Eckhart Tolle

if you learn to accept the ending of the things in your life and even welcome them, you may learn that the feeling of awfull emptiness changes in a peacefull feeling of inner space

this year

the picture says it all I think.......

love

walk the dogs

stitch .....all textile things

read

ragmates ( aka Jude, Grace and all )

LOVE 

happy new year !

a year for dreams never been dreamed........

kijk uit met vuurwerk....ALSTUBLIEFT

 

collect moments, not things

TJA

nothing to show and tell

and on top of it all

upside down

first impression

if you meet somebody for the first time and  you get. a negative first impression

are you going to  look if it's the truth ( for you?) 

or can you only see a fat person?

I found in a book the thought that people can be too proud to change their opinion......

at first sight i see a piece of cloth on a cabin and think...yekkkk

at a closer look, a detail of the cloth, i see how beautiful it is...

is this a good comparison?

where there is ruin there is hope for treasures

often said and actually boring

but my work never fails because there are beautyfull pieces or...

also boring

well..... 

Life is a balance of holding on and letting go. ~ Rumi*

By collecting stuff to be thrown away, my eye catched a little, inimini toadstool. It asked to take a picture from her with a Tovke ( Tovkes are my little creations for luck ). You see the moss reflected in the little mirror? Now the question is what to do with the wood? Hold or letting go?

BBC ....the universe

At the end of à programma about the universe , the man said.....

You are because you have to be.....

Isn't it à beautiful saying?

 

There was a leave, wol, silk and me and this is the result!

                                                                                

Dalai Lama

Søren Kierkegaard

Equinox aka autumn

Equinox..............time to be thankfull for the gifts of mother earth