Wednesday 30 July 2014

they also serve who only stands and wait



mam went all her life to church and she wants to pray but she wants to do it together with somebody
who is a Christian too. she really is confused and I'm often the object of 
her psychoses so that's is not helping when I try to read her something from the bible
her suspiousness makes her  sometimes angry and when I sit with her to read from bible, she says...you and your talks about god...go away.( by the way my church time is 40 years or so gone)
my friend  Clemy, a former nun, working amongst the poorest people in Nigeria, is a big help here
although she's roman catholic and mam is not , she is wanted for her religieus autority 
this time they talked about a line in a poem from Milton:
they understood each other so wel

they also serve who only stands and wait


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When I consider how my light is spent 
Ere half my days in this dark world and wide, 
And that one talent which is death to hide 
Lodg'd with me useless, though my soul more bent 
To serve therewith my Maker, and present 
My true account, lest he returning chide, 
"Doth God exact day-labour, light denied?" 
I fondly ask. But Patience, to prevent 
That murmur, soon replies: "God doth not need 
Either man's work or his own gifts: who best 
Bear his mild yoke, they serve him best. His state 
Is kingly; thousands at his bidding speed 
And post o'er land and ocean without rest: 
They also serve who only stand and wait."

John Milton