Saturday, 23 June 2012

suicide

Can I write  about last weeks?  I decided to do this because if it helps only one person in the world, I did the right thing. If you read this blog longer than today, you know I'm bi-polar. It's  difficult for the people who love me, because they see a happy Yvette when I'm very sad. The sadder the happier. In the  revalidation team is a psychologist who found me strange. If  you know me, you know I'm always a little strange, funny, chaotic, always in for a joke, a new adventure.... well .... a little strange. She ( the psychologist) put me aside for a talk. A couple of questions made it clear , that I was close to loosing contact with reality. Loosing contact with reality is in my case the cause of a severe death wish , and often I found myself in intensive care after a suicide attempt , not knowing what happened.


No cry for help as often is said.
An impulsive act from a disturbed person.

Please don't judge suicidal people
Do not think you are the cause of a suicide, if you lost someone

thanks


16 comments:

Suzi Smith said...

I've often thought that suicide is, in many cases, due a switch flipping in the brain, that makes it seem the obvious choice.... i wonder if it is possible to learn to recognise when that happens? perhaps not, as you say you often don't know what's happened.

*BIG HUGS* yvette.... i think if more people spoke about it, less people would judge, but it must be hard when you don't even understand yourself.

much love xo

maybe this could help?
http://www.alternativedepressiontherapy.com/EFT-for-Bipolar.html
i practice eft & know how helpful it can be x
google eft for bipolar for videos etc

Patsy said...

Dear Yf, you are one of my dearest friends....and I know you quite a while...and I can feel your deathwish...its so true for you...so true for me is it that I love you so much...and I respect your feelings...always I will be there for you by thinkin' positive thougts about you...even if it feels you are in the dark about yourself...you've been through a lots of depts in your life...and always was there something or someone who pulls you through...I believe that your Angel is there for you....where ever you go or wouldn't go...always is there the connection with the known and the unknown world. you make very difficult travels around the inside of your mind. Many years ago I saw in your head thoughts one big difficult system of ways of thinkin'....My dear friend I feel sorrow and happiness when I am thinkin' of you...and if I had had the power to make life and livin' easier for you I did it in an instant. One big magic touch was only what we need to make it happen. You are in my positive thougts..g Hugs.and I love you very much...and I am still glad that I know you. Big respects for sharin' of your thougts and all of what you really are in life...and thats a woman with everyting and nothing...Big Hugs and lots of Kisses...

Anonymous said...

bubbles and all....


Zelda

Martine said...

en weer sta ik hier met mijn mond vol tanden.............geen thema om maar even iets zinvols over te zeggen.
Love you................
XXXm

Miriam said...

Geen woorden...................wel knuffels!

Miriam

Diana Drent said...

Lieve Yvette, je hebt het zwaar, wat kan ik zeggen?

Erover oordelen zal ik niet maar ik wil je wel graag veel liefde en kracht toezenden.

Sweetpea said...

My dear Yvette, I do not know what to say in response to this heartfelt post, all my words seem trite. Its brave to speak these truths, about yourself, about what might happen to others. Suicide has brushed by me several times in my life...the loss of 3 friends in my younger days (mainly due to drugs & despair)...and then a recent friend who's attempt was thwarted by those who found her in hiding.

I carry a huge sadness in my heart for anyone who is so despondent that they feel their only recourse is to kill themselves. Is there no medical aid to help them? Medications? I don't think anyone deserves to live under that kind of torment...

Love to you. Oh, so much.

zelda said...

yvette, my (bubbles and all comment was meant for your last post, not sure how it ended up in this post. I think its wonderful that you talk about this now, and its really good that you are working through it. Take good care my special friend.

Anonymous said...

dank je wel, mag ik het door sturen naar een goede kennis die onlangs haar zoon van 22 verloor door een sprong voor de trein en van wie niemand het verwacht had, maar achteraf denken we inderdaad dat hij manisch-depressief was. liefs

Wendy Kat

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

~dear~ yvette...
bi polar
two points, then all the
space in between...please if
you can, rest in between.
i will say your name to this
Place, the mountain rim, the
goats. and
to SPEAK of everything is so
important.
LOVE to you

jude said...

you have explained something. i understand.

curieuzeneuzemosterdpot said...

..

dit is heel aangrijpend, yvette!!

ik hoop dat jij altijd mag omringd zijn door mensen die om jou geven en oog hebben voor alles wat er in en rondom jou gebeurd!
maw, mensen die van je houden!!

Stacie said...

I hear what you are saying and understand, no...no judgement. Heartfelt healing hugs to you and a wish for you to find balance between the two points more often than not.
Be Well.

Harnett-Hargrove said...

We jump high, we land ... there is indeed more to the trick of getting off the ground again and again. Rest in the in between, and keep your creative voice loud! -J

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Sandra said...

Lieve Yvette,

Best moeilijk om de juiste woorden te vinden. Ik zal sowieso nooit iemand veroordelen, want alles heeft een reden en die kennen buitenstaanders niet. Ik wens jou heel veel kracht, licht om dit te kunnen dragen en er jouw eigen weg in te kunnen vinden. Ik vind het heel dapper dat je er hier over schrijft.
xoxo