Thursday, 31 May 2012


where can YOU listen to your inner voice?
the sound of the really you
the moment intuition takes over

for me it's being in nature and playing with natures gifts

Friday, 18 May 2012

make fun out of fear

make fun out of fear or fear into fun

it's really  stupid because they are so beautiful, but I'm afraid of toads
actually i once saw a toad and WAS so  afraid that  I jumped up a table at a dinner in the garden
not being the slimmest person in the world there was "some" damage and total confusion with my guests
how I became there on the table,  I don't know, but panic does strange things with you
now if I look at a toad, I remember that dinner and start to giggle....
fun out of fear

Thursday, 10 May 2012

Just back from an appointment with the people taking care of my mother.
It was a good conversation, it made my worries diminish but my mother came sitting with us. She saw me entering the building, searched and found me.
She was angry I didn't call her to be present at the conversation, and later she start crying because I betrayed her by speaking behind her back.
If she couldn't trust me, who could be trusted. Her son, but he was at work. Why didn't Das correct me in speaking about her.
There is no necessity  to speak about her.
She sails between  everything (her words) so they don't see her and don't get mad at her.
Why Yvette, why do you spoil it for me here.
I love you so much and try to be good for you and now you do this to me...why?
she's so sad
I'm so sad

fucking disease (excusé le mot)

Monday, 7 May 2012


7 mei 1945
Noud's birthday.
Today you would be 67 years old...
Still missed
But also still close