It must be boring to read , but there is an off switch and I need to write things down.
Times are over that I hide my dark feelings and pretend to be happy and full of energy to organise fun stuff
Busy busy busy so I don't feel the dark thoughts, pushing them away.
But if I feel I'm loosing it I have to concentrate at something I love
Otherwise I stay in bed feeling bad
Today was such a day, waking up crying ( why???)
Not knowing what to do with the day except walking the blackones.
We met sheep!
A herd walks from time to time to eat grass ...everybody happy , well not everybody because you had to leash your dog.
I'm always so surpriced the real sheepherd instinct is still in tact with my dogs. Long ago the breed was official " nederlandse schapendoes "
Back home my mood softened...
Really lifting up yourself by looking at things that moves me worked today